Week 2 of My Addiction Recovery

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If you follow me or read any of my stuff faithfully you’ll know I’ve been battling a smoking addiction for over 40 years. It’s disgusting and exhausting.

On March 11th I decided to throw it all away. No more cigarettes for this girl. I had to be done. I was starting to look and feel gross. Just as gross as the cigarettes.

With this quit, as confident as I felt going in, I wasn’t going to put too much pressure on myself. If it sticks, it sticks, if it doesn’t, I’ll try again when I’m more ready.

Week 1 went fairly smoothly

The day I quit smoking I dragged my lazy ass back to the gym and bought a monthly membership. I figure the money I save on smoking should go to something better, like my health.

I’ve changed my morning routine now so I can get to the gym first thing in the morning before I start my work day. So far so good.

I should tell you right now, though I did quit smoking, I still vape. Hopefully one day I can quit doing that too. For now, the lesser of the two evils helps me.

So the first week went well and I really only had one cigarette craving. I got through it pretty good and nope, I didn’t cave. My daily gym routine now reminds me how disgusting smoking is.

Week 2 is amazeballs

I am feeling so fantastic and I can already notice a difference in my skin, my teeth and of course, my hair smells beautiful all the time. Yay! My gym time is my one treat I actually look forward to every day now. My body is getting stronger again and I feel so wonderful.

But.

I knew I was going to feel all these things. I’ve quit smoking a million times before. I’ve felt all these things before. They feel great. You feel like you’re on top of the world. You feel almost invincible.

But you’re not. You’re still an addict and at any minute you could slip. Just like that.

It’s different this time

This time is definitely different though. I’m getting older. I’ll be 57 this year. I’m no spring chicken anymore. I don’t want to be old and wrinkly and frail with a cigarette hanging out of my mouth. I want to feel as youthful as my spirit and Idgaf if that sounds vain. That’s what is going to keep me smoke free this time.

My age.

And to be honest, I’m just tired of smoking and battling the “should I quit now or tomorrow” bullshit. It feels like it’s never ending. You’re always in a battle. I had to tell myself if I don’t do it now and stick with it, when will I?

So though I’m not going to stress out over this quit, I am determined this time. I just feel really good and I don’t want that feeling to go away. So here’s to hoping this quit sticks.

I love you ❤

Peace and Love

xo iva xo

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