The Facebook Post That Changed My Life

And made me bawl my eyes out

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You know, as we grow, we learn. In order to grow, you must be open to learning anything from anybody. You never know where or who your next life lesson is going to come from. One of my biggest and greatest life lessons came from my 27 year old son. The things he taught me will stay with me forever.

So unless you’ve been living under a rock you know I’m now officially in Guatemala living an expat life. I really didn’t know what to expect upon arrival and it actually isn’t anything like how I envisioned it. This is why you should never have expectations or worry. That’s something I taught myself.

Just let things unfold the way they are supposed to. I still really can’t even believe I’m here. Like I actually truly really did this. That’s fucking crazy. I still look around here and think to myself “Holy shit as if you did it!?”

Anyway so I’m here all tucked away nicely. A few minor glitches along the way where my patience was tested and pushed to the limit but I made it, didn’t kill or hurt anyone and I’m still smilin’. The airport was a major fiasco. Thank you Mercury Retrograde, sometimes you suck. 8 hour delay there, tempers flaring, people so pissed. Oh man it was awful.

Moving right along………

My son blows my mind all the time

My son is a bit of a world traveler. He’s gone against the ‘norm’ and forged his own path. He’s a smart kid and a hard worker. After one year of university he decided it wasn’t for him.

He took to serving in restaurants and this has been the best thing he could have ever done for himself. He works his ass off 6 months a year, makes a shit ton of money and then travels the other 6 months.

He’s truly living a life most people only dream of. Colour me ridiculously fucking proud of this boy!

Anyway….

So I’m talking to my son on Facebook (which 99% of the time is our normal means of communication) and we’re chatting about how great life is and how far we’ve come and the different paths our lives have taken and he says ‘go look at your wall’.

There on my wall is this long beautiful post from my son about how proud he is of me and I cried. And cried. And cried.

Let me explain. For all of Julian’s 27 years of life I was always trying to do my best, make sure he had everything he wanted (within reason), trying to improve my life which in turn would improve his life and I failed countless times.

Over and over again I hit walls and hit them hard. We struggled, we were poor, but we had each other and for him that was enough most of the time. For me, it was but it wasn’t. I wanted more for him. But mostly, I wanted him to just be proud of me and proud to have me as his mom.

So this is what his post on my Facebook wall said:

Just in case I HAVEN’T told you yet, i just want to make sure that every single person i know knows that my mother, Iva Ursano, has just successfully sold ALL her shit and moved to GUATEMALA and now lives the DREAM writing about shit on the internet — WTF. She is 53 years young, still gets tattoos and endeavors to inspire strength and happiness in every single person she meets. A few months ago she went BACKPACKING through costa rica for 3 weeks ALONE and has now completely left Canada to be AWESOME. I CAN’T BELIEVE IT. We grew up in a tiny, cold, lifeless (sorry) town, struggling with money and constantly moving in order to make ends meet. Now i have been travelling the world alone for 2 years and have inspired my 53 year old mother to live the dream with me. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT I AM SO PROUD OF YOU IVA URSANO !! GO FOLLOW HER PAGE!

Finally. After 27 years I’ve finally made my son proud of me. And it’s a beautiful thing. I’m not entirely sure he was never proud of me before but this declaration set it in stone for me. And really, that’s all I’ve ever wanted.

Mexico 2017 ❤

What my son taught me

You know, as moms, we beat ourselves up all the time. I’m not good enough, I suck at this, I’m doing a shitty job, my kid hates me, I hate me, this is too fucking hard, I’m a loser at parenting…any of that sound familiar?

Well, I dunno about you but a few of those statements crossed my mind many times over the course of 27 yrs of being a mom.

The lessons I learned from my kid?

  1. Moms don’t be so hard on yourselves!
  2. You ARE awesome and doing a great job even though you don’t hear it from your kids all the time.
  3. You ARE appreciated and loved to the moon and back.
  4. Your kids ARE proud of you and think you are the best thing in the world!!
  5. Stop making up stupid things in your head about what your kids think of you. Every silly story you tell yourself is a lie.

I realized after his post that all the things I worried about, and continued to worry about as a parent were just bullshit.

I realized that I was too hard on myself and stressed out for nothing. I lived with a constant aching in my heart thinking I was a shitty mom and all this time it was just a lie.

Being a parent is the world’s toughest job, but it comes with the greatest rewards and lesson ever.

So all you single moms and dads or even not single, all you parents, if you think you suck, you don’t. Your kid thinks you’re a star ⭐

“…and the award for parent of the year goes to………….”

Peace and Love

xo iva xo

(side note: this incident happened 3 years ago just as I had settled down in Central America. My son is now almost 31 and still thinks I’m the world’s coolest and best mom ever ❤ )

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