Addiction

The Daily Struggle of an Addict

Hello, my name is Iva, and I’m an addict.

Just writing out that title almost embarrasses me. The girl who is all about spreading sunshine and love and hope and peace and bla bla bla….yup, she’s an addict.

The girl who wants to save the world and wants everyone to be happy and full of love and inner peace is an addict.

It’s disgusting, to be honest. I do my best to be healthy emotionally, spiritually, and physically, yet I suffer from an addiction. And lemme tell you, being an addict sucks monkey balls.

I hate it with every ounce of me.

Being an addict is no joke. No matter what your addiction is. The ironic part of this is that I don’t really have an addictive personality. Or do I?

There was a time when I was in my late teen years, and I was addicted to prescription pain pills, but then I grew out of that right quickly.

Then, in my early 30s, I was smoking more weed than I probably should have been daily, but then I grew out of that right quick, too.

I can’t say I ever drank to the point I risked becoming an alcoholic. I mean, I drank a hell of a lot when I worked in bars in my earlier days, but that’s just what you did then.