I’m Taking a Day Off Before I Die

Because Life is Too Fucking Short

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The other day I was having Amaretto tea with my dear friend here in Panajachel. Honestly, if you’ve never tried this tea, go get some. Yum.

Anyway we were talking about life and work and all other random things. It was nice to sit with her and chat. I don’t do that often enough. Actually, there are a lot of things I don’t do enough.

Like unplug.

I am plugged in almost 13 hours a day. It’s my life support. It’s my connection to the outside world. It’s my lifeline between me and other humans. Humans who get me, understand me, appreciate and support me. My online peeps.

But our conversation had me thinking. Good and hard. And it kinda scared me to be honest.

I have to say that my life since leaving Canada and moving to Guatemala has been a roller coaster of a ride. I’ve also in the last year become totally self employed meaning, no more social media clients. It was a scary ballsy move that had me scrambling in all of 2018 but it was something I felt needed to be done.

But because of this big bold move I’ve also been working 7 days a week, up to 13 hours a day some days. Oh sure, I take time for me here and there but not as much as I probably should.

I spend more time plugged in than actually living. Yes I do enjoy what I do. Writing, inspiring and motivating millions of people around the world. Yup, I love that.

But it gets exhausting and frustrating.

I burn out. I sometimes sit in front of the screen and just feel helpless and hopeless. “What do you have to do today iva, what do you want to write today iva, how come your Facebook page doesn’t have any new posts iva, how come you haven’t started writing your book yet iva, are you gonna podcast today iva?’

Just.shut.the.fuck.up.

The problem is, I get tired and just burn out. I’m not taking enough time for myself to step away and take in other things, like life and all the beauty it has to offer me.

I’m not taking time to stop and smell roses and breathe and talk to real humans and go do fun things that take my mind off of work.