It happened at 6:00 a.m. (ya, a.m.) this morning, it’s now 10:00 a.m. and I’m still pissed. I’ve done my journaling and meditating, went to the gym and came back home and had breakfast.
I’m trying to carry on with my day but I’m struggling. She may knock on my door at any given moment and say sorry, or she may never. I’m hoping she does.
You see, she’s my neighbour. She’s actually a really beautiful and sweet lady. Usually. This morning I saw the other side of her, and it wasn’t pretty. At all.
This may be a long story but I promise to try to condense it as best I can. There are puppies involved. 🐾🐾. It’s hard to shorten a story when puppies are involved.
I’m gonna bullet point this whole thing to simplify it.
- she has a dog
- I have a dog/puppy
- at the construction site we live at, there are 4 dogs, two puppies, 2 big ones (these furry critters belong to the property caretaker who lives on site)
- none of these dogs are allowed here at the apartment building, they normally stay at the construction site area…normally
- every now and then one of the puppies gets through the gate and wanders around the building.
- sometimes the gate is closed, sometimes it’s open (it should be closed at all times)
- the gate is close to my unit, I’m on the 2nd floor, she’s on the 3 rd floor
- she has to walk past my door to get to the backyard where our dogs do their thing
- the puppy that got through the gate is dirty and smelly and probably not vaccinated
- she hates this puppy and doesn’t want it anywhere near hers
- you following me ok so far?
- this morning all the dogs got in the building
- at 6:00 a.m.
- and all hell broke loose
So there’s a very loud knock at my door at 6:00 a.m. It’s her and she’s pissed. She’s yelling at me about the gate and the dogs and the smelly puppy and why is that gate not closed and oh.my.God.
And she’s had enough and it’s gonna cost her thousands of dollars if her dog gets sick because that puppy isn’t vaccinated and who let them in and on and on and on she went.
I hadn’t even had coffee yet. I could barely get two words in. I’m trying to defend myself but she ain’t having none of that. She’s done and storms away. I cower back inside my apartment wondering what the fuck just happened.
The sweet Jehovah’s Witness turned into Satan this morning
This is the sweet Jehovah lady who insists I need to do a bible study with her on Thursdays (that will never happen anyway). This is the sweet lady who shares her treats with me sometimes and is very friendly to me when we are both in the backyard with our dogs.
I mean, we talk up to 4 times a day for goodness sake. It’s always been fun and sweet and friendly. Until Satan appeared this morning. Oy. 🤦♀️
I get that people snap sometimes. We lose our patience, things make us angry. I get all that. I get that we all have bad days sometimes. We can’t stay positive and chipper all the fucking time. For real.
I also get that when people are mean or angry towards you, you have to let it go and not let it bother you. I mean, I preach that shit all the time.
“Just walk away” I tell you. “Don’t get caught up in their toxicity” I say. “Don’t let it get to you, try to stay positive”.
Yup, that’s me that says all those things, until it happens to me. Hypocrite? Yup! I’ll admit it right now. 🙋♀️
I did walk away, though she did first, I’m trying to stay positive but to be honest, that ain’t working out so well for me. I’m trying to get work done but I can’t focus on anything right now.
I’m pissed and hurt. And once again, I feel like a fucking doormat. I know this feeling all too well. And I’m tired of people using me as a verbal fucking punching bag.
So for now I’ll sit and wait for her to knock on my door again and come to me with an apology. If that doesn’t happen I will most certainly let her know her behaviour was unacceptable. I will use my voice and let her know that you can’t treat people like that.
Especially not at 6:00 a.m. before the morning coffee.
We do not deserve to be talked to or yelled at in a disrespectful manner by anyone. None of us do. Ever. Do not ever let anyone treat you like that and get away with it.
Use your voice. Tell them that’s unacceptable. Draw your boundary line so fucking thick they can’t miss it. Otherwise you will always be a verbal punching bag.
Looks like someone needs more Jehovah in her life🤦♀️
I love you ❤
Peace and Love
xo iva xo